Tonight I went by to see my h. He talked about wanting me to spend the night this Saturday. He also talked about us spending Christmas Eve together as a family.
I may have messed up because I told him that I'm not ready for our sons to see us together.
I feel real uncomfortable about that because my h is so unsure about our m. He may have us over this weekend then it will be over, I want the d come Monday! It's so hard on the boys to see this behavior. I want right now for us to date but to not let the boys know. My h said he didn't understand what I meant and really has no problem being together as a family.
I really want to stick to my guns here about not letting our sons know we are seeing each other. I'm just afraid they will be hurt if my h changes his mind again and kicks us to the curb.
Though my h wants to spend time together as a family....he has yet to indicate that he wants to remain married. Am I just suppose to BELIEVE his actions? He plans for the future like we are going to stay married. Should I act as if....and sleep with him whenever he wants? I have no problem being intimate with him...but I'd like the kids to remain unawares of our attempt at reconciliation this time.
