Looking for Advice

[gutwrenching]

At this point, I guess I have to be waiting for the wheels to fall off the roller coaster and send it plummeting again. Tonight someone could have told me it was Feb 2009 not Feb 2010 and I would have believed it. Probably the most "normal" (as the old normal would be) night in this home in I don't know how long - at least 9 months. W was very friendly, was home before me by about 10 minutes, we made dinner together, the girls were loving having her home and fighting for her attention (don't know if she realized or not), she even said to me at one point lets go up and change out of our uniforms. That hasn't happened in 9 months either - always used too - but those few times we got home together in the last 4 months, its been "you go" or "I'm going you stay with the kids"...now she was still modest but we did change out of uniforms in same room.

After kids in bed, a little effort not a ton. She did ask me what I wanted to do, so I told her. Not what she had in mind, she wants to read her book and mess around on her computer. She said when she got to the end of this section in her book, if it wasn't too late, she'd come down and watch one of our recorded shows. I know darn well that won't happen, but the fact she asked me what I wanted to do vice dictating what she was going to do was different also.

I tried Rocked's advice and that didn't go over so well. With as nice and engaged as she was, I tried to fill a little of the tank with a simple hand on her back. After a couple of seconds there, she contorted her body to get me to remove it. She didn't say anything, probably cause the girls were around, but I got the message and didn't try to fill the tanks again.