Thanks G Those very thoughts crossed my mind, after the fact. See that she must have called sister, as soon as she had talked to me, and I hadn't volunteered anything. Will have to keep a much closer watch on my own thought's, before they slip out.
Please let me explain. I've rarely ever lost at anything I wanted, not that I didn't have failures, but too stupid, stubborn to give up till I got it right. Math, steel, a Wal-Mart, a high rise condo, can walk through the build with my eyes closed. Right at home. Always know where every man is at, what he's doing, what to expect.
But this is virgin feelings to me. Feel as frustrated as a 3 leg cat, trying to cover crap on a cement parking lot. I have to read, reread everything, just to get a hint where it's going, how to use it, how to feel, react. Not used to trying to slow down, being unsure of an outcome.
