Gosh my head is just spinning with all the positives today!!!!!
1. H set up medical spending account for the year and wants to put my expenses in too! 2. H called to invite me to his office Christmas party...we'll be getting a hotel room for the evening! 3. H called me 5 times this morning!!! 4. Asked me over this evening to discuss Christmas presents for the boys!!! 5. He's available for counseling ANY TIME next week...whatever is most convenient for me!
But some that left me wondering:
1. Invited me to Christmas party said that even if I didn't go he was going! So it didn't matter if I was going or not....he just thought he'd ask me. 2. Invited him to a Thanksgiving party at our mutual friends...he said NO he didn't want to see them.
Now I'm afraid for our kids to see us together so am thinking I won't stay the night tonight or after his Christmas party. I'm kind of scared about the boys seeing us together tonight...don't want to get their hopes up.
These positives almost seem to indicate that he's coming back to me but I'm afraid to believe it. I don't want to get too involved with him just yet....not until we go to some counseling so I know what he's really thinking/feeling about us. I'm extremely wary. I want to tell him how I feel about our boys seeing us together but I'm afraid he'll take it as an indication from me that I don't want an US.
Is this piecing confusing or what!? Seems to me I'm damned if I do and damned if I don't!
