You've posted a bunch of things as to how could he, why would he...
The only thing that you can control is you. So given where you are, focus on what you can change. You can't change how he feels and its a waste of energy trying to figure it all out.
Take it for what it is and take stock of Cindy. You have the advantage,girl. You are not in a fog, you are not "messed up", you are a great mother.
Use the stop sign image when you start focusing on your H and all the drama surrounding that. When you have a thought like that, think of TWO positives about you.
Hang in there. Please take care of yourself this weekend.
