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[gutwrenching]

Everything pointing to this could be a crazy week, this weekend was not at all normal and so far today, more not normal. Luckily, I really think I am in a place to handle it, especially knowing I can come here and vent to my friends and I have one friend at work I can now talk too (turns out his 1st W was a classic WAW with an A, a lot of similarities to my sitch).

I have no anxiety today, I have no expectations on this week, I am engaged in work, I am at peace and alert despite sleeping poorly last night.

Two things that are already odd: W iniates a TM conversation with me and W is going to the gym at lunch. She hasn't gone to the gym at lunch in probably 9 months or more and she even asked me if I was going to the gym today (I'm not). TM during work is extremely rare since I took the 2x4 from Sandi a few weeks back and quit initiating/pursuing...except about dealing with the kids.

I'm almost chuckling at myself...knowing this could be a wild ride and knowing at some point I'm going to be frustrated or angry or something. Three weeks ago, I couldn't have handled this...now, I have confidence. I realize I'm not where I need to be yet in detaching and galing and 180s, but I get stronger every day.