I haven't seen any women post here in a while so thought I'd chime in with my two cents...
This thread is like a train wreck. I know it's full of carnage but I can't help looking.
I'm not at all surprised to hear that your ex's OM is older. That alone should signal you that she wants a real man, not a boy. FWIW, you sound pathetic to me and there's no way I would be interested in reconciling or being with a pushover. Then you flip flop and become a rude jerk. Not at all attractive either.
The only way to salvage this sitch is to work on yourself and become a better man. Everyone has told you that but you refuse to do it. Instead you continue to obssess about your ex and what you want her to do or not do.
Puppy and gucci are the best. You're lucky they and other great posters have taken time to post to your thread and offer advice. You're foolish not to follow it.
Sorry to be so blunt but it feels like you need it. And yes, I do know what I'm talking about. I followed their advice and ended up in a position to decide if I wanted to take my BF back or not.
If you love somebody, set them free. http://tinyurl.com/2empx2g