About your Mom. She just loves you. I sometimes have to remind my own Mom that Im 47 not 14 LOL. Makes her mad every time. Not been close with her for years till this D thing started. It's sad how only pain can bring some things closer together again.
Not familiar with ADHD so cant really give advice. That and Im still new. But I feel the advice about being the lighthouse and wanting your H but not needing him to survive rings true.
I am in a similar sitch as you but replace the ADHD with possible MLC (yes I know that term is overused and abused here).
Like you I still tear up and sometimes cry at pictures, notes, music and reminders of my wife and our life. After 23yrs together, reminders are everywhere. Even on the streets I drive on if that makes sense.
I am at the stage now where I am a (mobile) lighthouse myself as I tend to be a little too eager to help my WAW since she is starting to warm up a frienship with me. Should be divorced in 8 days so we will see if that changes anything. Remember, a D is not the end. I think of it as just a piece of paper. I didnt need paper to tell me we loved each other before we were married. Same for you right? My love is between me, her and God, not the State of Texas.
Regarding your Yoga Matt in the extra space, I opted for a pool table, bar and mini beer fridge in my extra space LOL. I just had to laugh when I read your Yoga Matt comment. I am the complete opposite of you LOL.
Keep being a lighthouse and loving from a distance. It sounds like you may have a chance at R but I do not want to get your hopes up. You never realy know, only he does or only God knows.
It gets easier. Stay strong.
Me:48 W:55 M:22 T:23 Bomb:19Nov09 S:15Jan10 D:11Feb10 EA:Confirmed on 20Apr10 Fast track to her divorcing me
