Tonight I left my h a vm telling I'm sorry for losing my temper on Tuesday, that I was sorry for filing for the d and for moving out. I told him I knew he was angry and upset but that I could not undo the past. I said that this d is still not what I want and that I was going to take action to rectify it and that if he still wanted the d he could follow up with action of his own.
No reply as of yet and I may not get one. But oh well. I've finally figured out..well maybe just have finally got to the point that I can say it without tears I can't make h happy. No matter what I try, or say or do, he's still unhappy. I finally feel free in knowing that I don't have to DO anything...he'll have to make his own happiness with or without me. I really don't think he knows this though...he's convinced I'm the problem thus no interaction cause I make him feel bad. He isn't any happier now on his own.
Oh, well life goes on...it's his choice now on how this is going to end.
