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[avermont]

Thanks for the vote of confidence, PH.

As to what I want my future to look like: this is why the house stuff is so hard, because it has repercussions on the rest of my future.

do I want to stay in this same tiny town as him?
in time, I won't care if I see him out with half a dozen OW. But right now, I am still carefully gaugeing where I might run into him/her.

What if I took advantage of this crisis to make a big career move--rescue, nursing, international first aid, women's clinics--that sort of thing?
Then I could always sell or rent the house.

If the house goes to a 3rd party, I feel much more free.
Would still have to decide whether or not to buy a house in this town.
Would buy a nice tiny house without all the work of the big old house.

What DO I want my future to look like?

At the moment, I am being as Bhuddist as I can:

"I liked my old life! whine! whine! I don't want it to change! whine! whine!"

ACCEPT THE SITUATION AS IT IS, GRASSHOPPER. AND REACT WITH INTEGRITY AND HONESTY.

It's just so frickin hard. In case you didn't know that.