I am great. First day back at the job, it has been wonderful! Everyone is very happy to have me back, and I am so glad to be back. Sometimes God does work in mysterious ways...

I sent SG a final email, telling him I loved him, that I didn't want a divorce, but that I wasn't trying to get him back or anything. It was just a gut instinct I have had for more than a week. I told him that I wasn't going to fight it, but I just wanted him to know. Kind of an acceptance of the fact email.

He thought I was bugging him to get moving on the divorce papers.

I am sitting here, shaking my head and wondering how I could love such an idiot. And realizing that the feeling of wanting to fix this is finally starting to pass, as acceptance creeps in.

I am definitely ready for this to be finished now. And am actually looking forward to it being finished.

Lola has come almost full circle...damn it feels good!

Im still standin better than I ever did looking like a true survivor feeling like a little kid Im still standin after all this time and Im picking up the pieces of my life without you on my mind..