how do i keep my hope alive?

[trytryagain]

thanks, OTM and OB. those are good ideas and i'm doing my best to give him space and still let him know i'm around. it was actually nice to rearrange some of the furniture last night after he'd moved his things out, and while i am lonely i'm not alone.

going to church definitely helps, i found a new one that i love and brought my sister with me this weekend and plan to bring some girlfriends this sunday. makes a lot of difference in terms of my overall mood!

plan to run tonight and have dinner plans tomorrow with my sister. today his his first day at his new job. i wanted to wish him luck but also don't want to distract him from focusing today - maybe a quick email this evening to say i hope it went well?

i'm just having a hard time with understanding where he's at in his head. last weekend he said he knew in his heart that separating was the best thing for both of us in the long run. in the letter he left, he said he wasn't sure if separating was the answer. i never responded to that letter, but...i'm so confused.