Moving on with my life!

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When someone gets really centered spiritually, getting themselves in a higher place in which they are in touch with God or Spirit, and feeling His presence and self confidence in their choices to rid their lives of toxins, others want "in"...they envy your peace and they want a piece of it (or you). It's very attractive although clearly is not the reason for getting there.

What a great post 25, especially this part! Thanks.

I agree! Great post all around and I did read it a few times. I really like the above part and its so true. I notice it with others.

I really try and hide my emotional side to my older kids, but I am sure they can read some of my sadness/lonliness. Life has changed for me alot as they know it in the past few years...some due to exh, some not. They do see me home alot more than I used to be and not with anyone. But I also do want to show them I don't need to be out hunting for a man either. They asked me awhile back why I am not dating. Well, besides the fact that nobody is interested (and I didn't tell them that), I have baby 24/7 and I am not going to drag men in and out of her life like some other mothers we know. If/when I date again I will not make the same mistakes I did before. I am hoping they look at that as something honorable rather than with pity.

I do keep a very detailed and unemotional journal regarding exh. My attorney told me to do that from the beginning. It has visit days, how long he comes and if he comes. Also no shows, no contact at all, child support and some other things I may observe...such as him stating he is going hunting rather than see baby. I guard that book with my life as I am hoping my entries will be useful for when/if he takes me back for unsupervised time.

My goal this week is to keep working on my yard. When we were flooding a few weeks ago it was fine..now that the sun is shining its a mess and I like having a nice yard. Little at a time. We also have music class tomorrow if baby is feeling better and one more wrestling match for my son.

Kids and I were also talking about baby's upcoming 2nd birthday in March and what we wanted to do. I really want to not have the huge bday party and go to Disneyland. Kids want to go too. Something to start planning now.

Ok, D20 is waking up. Going to have breakfast with her and she is heading back to school...going to miss her. I hate saying goodbye. I love her so much.