up so early this morning refusing to be miserable today...

ST - I cannot tell you how much I appreciate you still posting and not giving up on me. I know you are driving home some hard facts that I am now learning to accept.

I never applied what I've been told here 100% but now I will...and NOT to save my M but to save ME. I truly believe in my heart my marriage is over and will accept that. What I don't want is to sink down with it. I won't let that happen so it's time to change how I do things.

Thank you guys - for your patience, understanding and prayers. They have done me well. I don't think I could have gone through yesterday without them - I had a sense of peace that I had not felt before....so keep praying for me.

Luv Luvs you all...


M44 H41
M20 T23
3 older teens
Bomb Nov 09 "i'm not happy"
EA Nov 09 w/coworker
Another PA in Mar 10
I Filed Apr 10
D final Dec 10