I almost walked away. I had a 2 month affair, mostly online. wife found out which brought the affair out in the open. I was still addicted to OW so I took a flight out to visit her for a few days. Things got somewhat physical.
When I got back, I lied to my wife about what had happened but one day she made me swear to God nothing physical happened, which I finally confessed. I was ready to move out but changed my mind at the last minute.
The OW and I were convicted of what we were doing and agreed to break things off within a week after I got back.
After that I went into depression/withdrawal for a month while I got over her, but I did and it was hard.
After that was out of my system, my love for my wife returned with a passion, more than ever before. I was totally recommiteed to her, my marriage and family. A God thing, I'm convinced.
Unfortunately, she was done with me and wouldn't give me a second chance. She moved out Feb. of 2009, filed for D in April, and we're at the last stages.
This brought on a much worse 2nd depression, where I lost 45 llbs, couldn't sleep/panic and anxiety attacks and obsessing.
Stupidest, selfish, most regretful thing I've done in my life - throwing away my family.
