First time poster feeling a bit lost

[MT21]

Hi,

Been a while since I last posted, Things have been both bad and good.
I am now out of the house, she is in but under some retrictions like he cant go there.
I am still keeping myself fit in between partying, I have had a few dates with someone, but things have been strained, we enjoy each other's company but there are moments of jealousy from her side especially when I spend days with children, so I have decided that we wont see each other anymore.

My wife and I met yesterday she brought the children to me, then she broke down in tears and told me how stupid she has been, how she still loved me..I just stood there.
Later she SMS'd to tell me she still loved me always did, she told her OM that she didnt want to be with him anymore.

I went to see her last night, I told her that the OM wasnt a Big obstacle for me but I wasnt planning to rush to get things back, we needed time, hard work etc...counselling what ever.
Then She told me she is still in love with him, if we get back she may resent me, she sees the changes in me, she admitted she still finds me attractive and she has a huge amount of respect for me but isnt sure if we can ever be lovers again (to be honest I am not sure about this either). She says she wants to be by herself to "get her head straight".

This is really confusing for me, 1st she says sorry I love you, next thing "sorry about that didnt mean to mess you about".

I think I'll just leave her alone, and carry on sorting myself.

Anyone seen this before? or offer any advice?

Thanks

MT.