Where in the world did that come from !!!

[blownaway65]

So, you good people here on the boards and my IC are all big advocates of me Getting a Life and moving on with my life - but at the time keeping the door ajar for WAW should she wish to work on the MR down the track.

Seems I've gone and done too good a job.

I signed myself up to RSVP (online dating) yesterday morning at around 7:30am and 'put myself out there' - within an hour I had a 'hit' from a lady who lives around 40kms away.

We chatted a bit online and finished up meeting for coffee and a face to face. She is really nice and the most interesting woman I think I've ever met - and HOT to boot. She is 46 and separated with no kids. We really had a great time just talking. Before I met her I couldn't imagine myself being so cool with, well, that.

We're both keen to take it further.

So last night at home, I had a good old cry because I know that if I do start something with her, and I do want to, then I have to close the door on W of 23 years (regardless of whether she would have come back or not) and my family becomes what they like to call 'blended'.

Once I make the decision, it's going to be a done deal, because I could never use another person and then discard them if W wanted to come back.

It certainly is an effective way to get your mind off W though.

I've spoken to the kids about her, and I guess asked if they are OK with it, and they all are. I think they see it as "Mum just went off and left us for another guy, at least Dad is making sure we're good with it".

Anyway for the time being, I'm going to take things slow and see what happens before I go making any hasty decisions, it just adds another dynamic to my sitch I suppose.