Nothing new in my sitch other than the NC seems to be getting easier for me. It helps that I have been staying busy...except my father had a seizure in the middle of the night last night. We spent 8 hours in the ER waiting for the doctors to check everything out. As I am finding out, it is not all that uncommon for stroke survivors to have seizures. I am emotionally exhausted...maybe I just don't have enough energy to be bothered by the NC.
glam-I have been reading more on depression trying to understand it even more. I don't think I will ever truly understand unless I get to their level of depression. I feel bad for my H but, as you say, I need to live my life for me now...and it is easier for me with NC. I have considered dating but I don't think I am ready. I would just love to find new friends and new interests...however that is difficult to find the time with my kids, my dad and now work. Living life for me may actually have to wait to take priority for a few more years.
peace-I know you and your XH were on better terms in the beginning. I think he struggled with what he was doing. It is so sad for the kids and for him that he has gone AWOL. However, IMO, it is probably easier on you that way. Hopefully when your XH figures himself out, it won't be difficult to come back into your kids lives. My mother disappeared for 2 years and now we have a great relationship so it is possible.
trusting-I have never been good at setting boundaries with my H. I allowed him to keep one foot in and one foot out but in my sitch, there is no known OW. This is my 2nd M. My first H had an OW and kept a foot in both doors until I finally said enough. All these years later, I am still the scapegoat for his and his now W's angry feelings. It wasn't until I was able to distance myself from them that the harrassment stopped. I'm sure they still blame me for everything but I don't know about it anymore and I don't really care. I think you are handling your situation the best way possible. It tells what kind of person you are that you still pray for your XH after everything he has done...I must admit, I never did that for my first H but back then I didn't have a forum like this to help me understand what was going on. It does help to come here.
