You push, I'll pull.

[Kelly23]

venting

Things have been stressful this month at home since H is not working as much. When I left for work one day last week, H leaned over and kissed me. I probably should have been glad but it made me so angry! How dare he think that he has the right to touch me anymore. I have asked him for a D. He is dead to me as a H. He does not get to touch me anymore!

So last Saturday we went out to eat together (I invited him)and told him that I did not like him kissing me, that when I told him the second affair was the last straw that I meant it and when I said I was leaving when S was finished with high school I meant it.

He said all the same things about how the 2nd one was just flirting, that she was 800 miles away, blah, blah. I told him that I had been waiting for him to work on us and instead he had spent his time with her, either online or on the phone and I was not going to be 2nd anymore. I was going to make myself 1st in my life even if he had no respect for me.

I guess this time he really believed me. He called me today after we fought (while trying to get my daughter's car out of the driveway..it was snowed in) and apologized for being an a$s. I do not even remember the last time he ever apologized to me (unless I forced it). Why do I not care when he acts like a jerk anymore? Now I am just angry that I said I would stay until S graduates. I have written H off and really just want him to leave.