I will try to be more cordial when she comes over tomorrow.
I'm feeling very weak right now...I really want to message, email, or call her to ask for forgiveness for what I did Friday.
I know that thats pursuing though...but it keeps eating at me that she said I had a chance and blew it. It makes me think if she forgives me for what I did Friday, maybe we can get back on the track of reconciliation.
But I know if she's still mad at me, which is likely, then she'll just say no.
I dunno maybe I can try and talk to her about it tomorrow when she comes to get our daughter. Even that feels like it would be wrong though...like she'll hear what I have to say but just turn around and give me the "we're done you blew it" speech again.
How do the rest of you make it through the days not having contact with your W/H/SO? It hasnt been much more than a day and can't stop feeling the need to contact her and apologize...essentially begging.
This is why I keep messing up. I have little to no self-discipline...and I'm never sure of myself.
Anyone have ideas on what I can do...to either resist contacting her, or to formulate an apology that might have a chance of getting her forgiveness?
