I asked him to take over my role of praying for my wife so I can let her go, I handed him the tatered prayer I have kept in my pocket since 7/14/09 and he gladly accepted.
I took my wedding ring off.I put it in a sealed envelope with a Thank You note written to God. I had written the note months ago and unsealed it briefly, didn't read what I had written, I can tell you, I don't remember what I had written, just dropped the ring in it and resealed the envelope. I don't care if you think it's corny, I know the Lord is in my life, the card is addressed to him.
You do whatever it takes to move forward and no this isn't corny.
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I slept in a bed last night for the first time since 7/13/09 and I slept until 1:10 this afternoon, I went to bed before midnight last night.I didn't sleep that long because of depression, guys I'm just tired, mentally, physically beat and those thumps in the chest and the pushing me to my car for all to see and not a thing i could do about it, just finished me, i have no respect, no trust, no feeling towards her right now.Nothing.
This tired, beat down feeling comes from getting caught up in her drama and not taking care of you. This is the first time you actually slept in your bed since July?
One way or another you have to accept that all you can do is take care of you. Place your focus on you and the kids. Forget your W for now, she isn't the same person.
Do you understand why we have all been telling you to focus on you now?
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She texted me last night to leave her alone, all i could text back is you are alone.
STOP RESPONDING TO THIS SH*T. She is pushing your buttons and YOU ARE LETTING HER.
What happened to moving forward? ....changing?
Sorry... this is the same.
Ignore this crap, only respond to her when you absolutely have to.
