Lotus she's 14 and has no feelings, she told me in front of her mother, she just doesn't care she doesn't want to care, she doesn't want to like, hate, be loved or loved, she said dad didn't even acknowledge her mom, i know you love me, i don't want to know heartbreak and I don't want to know anger i just want to chose and make myself have the numbness i have.
My 11 yr old is demanding as heck now and angrier by the day, then he has his moments, he must have come over 30 times today and given me a hug.
I did not cry or let on how hurt i was by their mom last night.
