Look, I bet you are getting great advice her from the veterans who know so much. I bet you have been unable to apply it, unable to keep it in your mind when you need to the most. Start with some ACTIONS that are for and about you, not because you are trying to save your M. Know that in the long run, because of this you will be better off, NO MATTER WHAT THE OUTCOME.
Thanks Awoken. I am indeed getting sage advice from the vets, but you're right when it comes time to apply it my emotions get the better of me. It seems I keep getitng good advice but at the same time keep screwing up and doing all the wrong things.
I also have trouble maintaining focus on other things and not on my sitch/SO. That causes me to go on the emotional rollercoaster and play the blame game...first myself, then my SO, then back to blaming myself again.
It upsets me that there are people out there (like the OM) who would take advantage of my sitch and possibly keep my family broken up. It upsets me that someone my SO had known for 4 or so months had higher value/priority than someone she's been with for over 7.5 years. How can things work out that way?
