I know exactly how you feel, when I thought H had one too! Embrass it and feel it and the more you get your head round it the easier it gets, like you say its almost freeing to know rather than wonder. Have to say my instincts are with you, but who knows, I know so many say I dont think there is someone else on this board only to find there is, and they all go a bit I told you so, but just as many dont have someone either..
Go and enjoy yourself and keep yourself focused on you and S that is all that matters H is a grown man and he can fend for himself and you WILL live without him what ever he is doing!
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Rabbit
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Once lost but now found and happily married again!
