Thanks LR! Thanks for the hugs and hugs back atcha! I sure hope your H gets some contracts soon!
I can certainly work more hours to help get caught up but I guess I feel that H chose to leave. I am the one left doing 100% of the parenting, household duties etc. etc. that HE can work the OT but I am not! IF we end in divorce, I will have to but not until then!
Yes, we will work on getting those renters. Although, H could certainly move in there...that is where he started...it would mean a 1hr commute though!
IF I knew that it would only be a couple of months and he'd come home, I would use the little bit of inheritance money that I have left but I hate to use it for that and then have to pay for a D on top of that. So frustrating!
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You keep that inheritance money for emergency purposes for you and the kids hun you need to have a back up plan at least. If you can do the over time do, thats what I have been doing although that is hard as I already work a forty hour week.
Hope he sorts the bills out sensibly with you (())will be thinking of you both!
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Well, it was a bust! Saw H waiting at the stop light (I was running about 30mins ahead of what I told him) so stopped and he said he left $100 on the fridge and asked if his disability check came from when he was off. Well, it did yesterday and I deposited it but the word no, came out of my mouth. I figure that I will say that it came in Monday's mail and that I deposited it along with the $100. Anyway, for some reason, he was in a big hurry to get back home. I know that the OW works tonight so not sure what the rush is...he is apparently coming back tomorrow to split wood again and we will talk then.
I am just disappointed that we didn't talk. He was on the phone when I saw him. I have to keep telling myself that this phone business is going to get old for him as he has never talked on the phone that much. Am going out tonight for our xmas party and the only one without a date as the other girl has to go to her second job now..I am going to HATE that but will act as if it does not bother me...have been considering calling in sick! And now, D11 is staying with SS28 and S14 is at scout camp so will come home to an empty house! Sad....
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H was just here. I was still in bed when he got here...late night...lots of fun! Went to a piano bar with my work peeps and their significant others! I was the only one without a date and have to admit that it was hard watching the others hug and kiss and hold hands...wanted to bust into tears a couple of times but held it together and had fun.
Anyway, both kids were gone so helped H split wood and then we discussed finances. I think he is still in a dream world where those are concerned but that is nothing new...he has always thought that we have a money tree in our back yard. He told me that our renters are moving out and he has considered moving in there. He is just on a month to month lease now so is possible.
I know that this DBing takes patience but I don't know how much longer I can be in limbo here. No kiss or playfulness today...am disapointed and relieved at the same time! I am not sure that I am strong enough to say no right now!
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Well, guys...I am going to have my first DB telephone coaching session today. Decided I needed it! I am just having a hard time sticking to my guns when H is around...hoping that actually talking with a coach will help with that! Yesterday when H and I were talking, he mentioned the computer and how he didn't miss it the longer he was away from it and then mentioned that he wasn't missing drinking beer either, that he had thought about having one a couple of times and didn't (he wasn't a heavy drinker but it is something we did every weekend) so then I stupidly opened my mouth and said that I hoped that didn't mean that the longer he was away from home that he wasn't missing me too! He said no, but in a "not exapperated" tone but similiar!
Both of my brothers can't understand WHY I want to continue this M. My neighbor emailed me saying that they had heard the "unpleasant" news and offered support and to call if we ever needed anything. It was only a matter of time for that as I am sure they have noticed the truck being gone.
See, I even ramble on here! Will let ya know how the phone coaching goes!
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I'm really glad you are going to get the coaching CW. I think that support will be really good for you. You need to get stronger and I think that will really help. I'm cheering you on!
Thanks RW!!! Just got off the phone with Cheryl the DB coach. She feels that maybe H is feeling like he is no longer needed! I have been working so hard to show that I can be independent with out him and the few times he has been here the kids have gone about their business doing computer, TV that he may feel like we don't want/need him. She got this also from my description of the OW, that she is a needy/needs rescue woman. She has had an abusive past.
I am to get H to do more than spend an hour or 2 with the kids here. He needs to make plans and do something with them. This weekend is H's birthday and he did mention going out to eat with the kids, even if it is just Subway. I am to look good, smell good etc. like I have plans and if he invites me, hesitate and go if I want to. Also, need to find some things around here that we NEED H to do for us whether it is a school project, or a repair around here. H does mention every time he comes over that I should call him if I need something.
So much more that we talked about to think about but will start with getting H on a schedule with the kids and go from there! I am happy to have something to work on here!
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LR-If it wasn't for that inheritance money in savings, I wouldn't be able to afford it either! After a lot of thought, I decided that it was worth it! Looks like you did just fine on your own!!!
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