Well that day ended about as horrible as it could have possibly ended.
I outlined what happend in my "help I messed up bad thread"...but I think it really is over, and theres nothing left.
I dont know why I went over there...I knew it felt wrong beforehand...and that I would probably find them together like I did...but I did it anyway.
Now I've let myself down and my daughter down...my SO said that if I had any chance in hell it's gone now...we're doen and she's moving on with OM.
She'll be here in an hour to drop off our daughter...if she even comes instead of her father.
I'm so drained...so scared...and so angry with myself for pushing her away yet again.
I wanna ask her to forget about what happened last night...but I doubt she will. I know I have to at least apologize and reassure her that it wont happen again...but I dont even know if I'll get the chance to.
