i can't believe he's moving out tomorrow. i'm kind of numb about it. he hasn't slept here in about a week anyway, so that i'm on the verge of getting used to. but his clothes are still in his closet, his books still on the shelf. i packed some things up tonight and did not shed a single tear. i felt like someone else was using my hands to put those things in boxes. i also feel like someone else has taken over my life.
went out to dinner tonight and it felt good to kick back and laugh. came back to an empty, quiet apartment...that's about to get a whole lot emptier and quieter. not sure i'm ready for that, but as i've learned here, it's not really something i can control.
i'm going to hit the sack so i can get up early and head out of here with the dog before my H gets here to pack up. if anyone out there in cyberspace is awake and feels like praying...i'll take all the prayers i can get.
Me30 H29 M2.5 T5 H moved out 1/23/2010 H wants signed agreement 3/30/2010 ...feeling hopeless
