(((fm)))

I just reread your post to me... I misunderstood what you were originally sayin'....

About being out of my control and being or feeling like the victim... I understand what you are sayin' now...

Ingore my reply...

My thoughts this afternoon... I don't know. I was in a different place...

Truth be told... I am (was) am (still) am (wanting) to hide from...

reality. Maybe reason I am running from W.

I am detached, I'm not detached... who really knows. I tell myself I am.

W tryin', me closing the door. W tryin to talk more, me...not.

D busted, nope. D on hold, yes currently. Why, not sure. Happy about it, I think yes inside. What to do, how to react, not sure.

Do I really know what I am doing, nah.

Back sliding, yup.

Right now, emotional... seems to be the case.

Do I like me right now... couldn't say.

I don't even know what I am thinking right now... and I don't know why.

Been gal'ing... yes, like this was the last day I'd see... doing everything...

Like the movie "Yes Man" Jim Carrey

Crashed

Me 43 / W 40
T 29 / M 15
S-18
11/4/09-ILYBINILWY
11/10/09-Separated
12/1/09-W admitted EA
12/5/09-W admitted PA
12/24/09 W say "I love you"


"A GOOD MARRIAGE IS NOT ONE WHERE PERFECTION REIGNS"