Separated, new baby, but still hopeful

[newmama]

Hahaha! Wow, Whatnow, you know your stuff!
Mindfull, I know- spreading seed is pretty gross! lol

Okay so WH picked up S. He said "Mommy is sure going to miss you like crazy." (guilt)
He "let" me hold S a little while (guilt), but I was thinking "Come ON already--take him so I can get this over with!"
Then he lingered a bit, collecting some overnight stuff. He said
"well, try to relax a lot and we'll be back tomorrow before you know it!" (guilt)

I was decked out but damn it-no lipstick! Couldn't find it in time! Oh well.

I also tried to look a mixture of calm and cool but a uncomfortable because I DON'T WANT WH to think "oh good- she is eager to get out over here. See? She can have a break by me taking him overnight."

Now after they left it hit me...first night without S. I SHOULD have made real plans! But I definitely will for next week. So I decided to stage my place to make it look like I had a couple of friends come over...you know, "ladies" night? In my mind, we would have gone out, then returned for some cocktails and snacks.
(again, I will have to make this a reality in the future!)

So I sliced up a bunch of limes, set up 3 glasses with straws, squeezed the limes into the glasses and am making a tiny batch of nachos. Now I won't be eating the nachos because last night I pigged out, but I will set them up on some plates and then put them down the garbage disposal. There will be evidence tomorrow of drinks and snacks! Well I will need to clean up mostly but I will leave some of the remnants out.

Sigh...I might have to actually drink the 3 margaritas. Oh the sacrifice!

Seriously this is a lot of work and it would be way better to have had real plans instead! Lesson learned!