I have an IC appointment for Thursday, the best she could do for me. (Well, she could have seen me on Wednesday, but I'm holding out some hope that my wife will still want to do MC with me that day.)
I know the limitations of what I can do; unless I believe she is in danger of harming herself, all I can do is encourage her to go. Which I did, many times last night.
I am not scared of losing her anymore; in some ways, I've accepted that as the likely outcome. She may have to be by herself, really think about what she wants, and work on herself before we have any chance of putting this back together. If that's what we even want at this point.
Right now, I'm mourning the loss of her "womanhood". Having a kid with her was my dream, too. And I accept my share of the decisions to put it off, but honestly -- who would ever expect this in her early 30's? And by my guess, this has been a problem for a couple of years; the one miscarriage we had a couple of years ago could have been a result of this.
Me: 44, Wife: 39 M: 17 years T: 20 years Bomb on 08/25/09 1/13/10: MC started 1/28/10, 2/8/10: More bombs 8/28/10: Wife moved out No talk of D, no movement
