I've hit a wall.. Now what?

[talia]

Thanks Cutter! I cherish both moments, the good ones remind me why I'm fighting and the bad ones remind me what I need to avoid. I never thought I would be empowered by those feelings.


Journaling....
Its funny, before I met H I wasn't EVER going to get married. I didn't want that for my life. My mom always said I would feel differently when I met the right person... and TA DA there it was.I digress... The funny thing is, early on, I kept saying "I wish I never would have married him, This is why I was never going to get married"... but I've realized that being married to H was one of the best things in my life so far. I don't regret it at all, even if we D. I've learned alot, I have alot of great parts of my life now that he influenced and even through this seperation and him leaving - this has given me a part of myself I never understood until now.

I've always said that I wouldn't change the decisions I've made in the past because each one made me into the person I am now and I like that person... I don't think I truly felt that way about myself these last few years, but I do again. Thats a great feeling.


Oh... and the bitterness...it only pops up a little now and then... It goes well with pizza rolls and pina coladas and movies about wives who get even......