New year, new thread, update of sorts..

[dmkdmkdmk]

Hi everybody!

I haven't posted in forever. I also changed my SN because I noticed that if you googled it, my DB postings came up... along with other places where I used that particular SN. Brief recap, my husband moved out when I was seven months pregnant... just didn't feel like being married anymore. Never found any evidence of an A though, even seven months later. Never sure if it's MLC, or WAH, or if it even matters.

There is not too much to update as far as the situation goes. We are moving closer to MY deadline - if he renews his lease in June, it's over for sure. But I agreed to wait on moving forward with the D until his lease was up.

We are at a point now though - we spend a lot of time together. 99% of the time he spends with the kids, he spends at my house (and he sees them almost every day). Last time he was to watch them overnight he just stayed at my house. I make dinner, we watch TV together, we banter back and forth like we used to. He calls me throughout my day just to see how my day is going, and once in a while I will call him too. He volunteers more information about where he goes/who is texting/who he talks to and asks more about when people text me (e.g. my mom texts me early in the morning before I leave for work to tell me the roads are bad; H is curious about who is texting me so early).

Yesterday he called me in the morning on his way home from work (he works overnights every other month) venting about coworkers, and he mentioned that a while back, someone had written "Husband and Father of the Year" after his name on the board after they found out about him moving. I'm not sure what his purpose was in telling me this, except to further his own victimhood...

Last night I was telling him he should run for public office (joking around about something) and he said he never could now - constituents would look at him and say "Well, how do we know that one day he won't just quit on a whim and say he doesn't feel like being a city councilman anymore?" He was joking around and being funny, but it was the first time I've ever heard him allude to his decision as being "a whim".

On my own, I'm pretty happy. I've lost at least 30 pounds from my pre-baby weight, I am wearing sizes I haven't worn in five years. I have my beautiful little girls to wake up to every day. I just started my first class towards my MBA. I have lots of friends and family around and I generally stay positive. While I'm not happy about the situation, I think I've finally become a me I can live with.