It is extreme madness. Of course, if I were to ask SG if he still loves me, he would say no. Very quietly. After a long pause. Like he had to think about it.

One time he asked me if we could sustain a friendship in which the two of us dated other people. I told him I would not be able to do that. Then I asked him if it would bother him if I dated other men, and he said...drum roll please...

I just want you to be happy.

This was a conversation we had probably two years ago, but lately I have been thinking about that because if, at this point, he were to ask me if we could remain friends with us dating other people, and ask if it bothered me, I would say I just want you to be happy.

Now, in my head, that translates to f*ck no I don't want you to date other people, but I sure as hell am not going to tell YOU that.

I wonder exactly what that means in man language.

Im still standin better than I ever did looking like a true survivor feeling like a little kid Im still standin after all this time and Im picking up the pieces of my life without you on my mind..