Separated, new baby, but still hopeful

[newmama]

Hi, June, thanks for commenting! Yeah in November I thought I would file for D in January. Well I changed my mind to put it simply!

If WH is normalizing, he won't be able to live like this forever! Seriously, he would eventually file for D if that is what he wanted! So I am not worried about the length of time. I just get tired sometimes but it doesn't mean I will be giving up--just being honest.

I am sure he knows I still want him because I haven't filed for D but I don't see how that is a bad thing. In my gut, with my sitch and with him, I think that if he thought I didn't want him then he would "set me free" with a D.

I guess I am waiting out the OW .

Tonight he takes S overnight but returns him at 12 tomorrow. Hopefully he will just drop him off and go but if not, I will tell him that S and I have plans and need to leave.

So I will be looking good tonight to go out and I think I will be on the phone when he walks through the door, "confirming my plans" Actually, next week I have plans but I don't tonight but it is OK! I will exercise and play my wii and just have some time alone in my house but I really will be ok! S will wake up several times I am positive so they won't have a smooth night! And hopefully OW and WH will argue about how to get him back to sleep! hahahaha