I'm away. In Florida for a while. But wanted to check in with you.
What you are feeling is totally normal. It is part of the grieving, part of the process, part of your growth. I felt it too. It comes and goes in waves. Sometimes when you don't expect it at all. And you go through all the "What Ifs" and "How Could Yous" all over again. It takes time. A whole lot of time to get past it all.
It has been 8.5 years for me now. I'm on a different path. And I'm not living in regret anymore. It has taken a long, long time. No contact was the only thing that really worked for me. And I'm glad I have basically cut him out of my life. He was toxic to me. But then - none of us has the same ex or the same R.
It will pass. Sometimes you DO have to feel it. If you lock your feelings away - they can't heal. You need to air them out. Give them the energy they deserve from time to time then dust yourself off and go on.
