So my world has been completely rocked today.

When my wife had her surgery, she was told that she had a fibroid tumor on her uterus but that it was going to be tricky to remove.

She had an MRI the other day, and the results are far worse than we imagined. She has andometriosis, an unusual form of endometriosis, and she will never be able to carry a pregnancy to term and will likely have to have a hysterectomy.

With all of the stress of her job, and with us, and the fact that she is starting her period, she is an emotional basket case right now. She blames both of us for waiting too long to get serious about having children, and now that is no longer an option. She says she's done; I have asked her not to make any permanent decisions right now, in her emotional state.

I do not know where things are going right now. I have asked her -- begged her, really -- to go see someone about depression. I think I've talked her out of making a final decision right now, but she is hurt and angry and depressed.

I laid it out for her; it may be pursuing to the max, but I don't care at this point.

I told her that I love her, and that I made a choice to be with her in sickness and in health, for better or for worse. She tried to tell me that I deserve to be with someone who can give me a child, and I told her that is not an option for me right now. She can make her own choices for herself, but don't presume to make decisions for me.

And now I feel like I can finally go back to sleep; my eyelids are drooping. More on this later.


Me: 44, Wife: 39
M: 17 years T: 20 years
Bomb on 08/25/09
1/13/10: MC started
1/28/10, 2/8/10: More bombs
8/28/10: Wife moved out
No talk of D, no movement

"Every day is another chance to get it right."