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[gutwrenching]

Well a better night thus far from a personal perspective, as far as the W, who knows...seems pretty typical of late and haven't paid a whole lot of attention. As usual, when it was time for someone to go home, I texted W to say I was leaving. She immediately replied back (unusual) that she was right behind me. Counseled myself not to care, think about it, react to it, or even plan around it. Got home, got back into my routine. Was relaxed, at peace. About one hour and half after "right behind you" get a text that W was driving home. Dinner was already on the table, we were eating. W is visibly upset when she gets home at seeing how late it is and the girls about done...this is typical, and I make sure to completely ignore it. Some friendly chit chat for a while and then W says someone needs to go out and get cold medicine for D8. I jump on that one...chance for me to get away, get a night off from the bed/bath routine. We discuss what else we need at the store and the W asks me if I am alright; was surprised cause I thought I was acting completely normal and I wasn't upset about a thing. So I just told the truth - said I have shoulder/neck pain which is causing a headache, that is all. Felt good not to fake everything is grand. She said I should go to doc for muscle relaxers like she got - just nicely told her it isn't that bad, I'll be fine tomorrow or next day.

W claims she needs to work tonight. I'm not waiting for her to decide what/where she is going to do this. Grabbed my computer, a drink, and plopped down on the couch. Concentrating on relaxing tonight. It was SO NICE to get one night off from putting the kids to bed, I made sure to get back in-time to tuck them in, but not to have to deal with the night time routine for the first time in literally months was heavenly. And W seemed to be in good spirits after getting some time with them.