Yes, it seems that everyone knows where it is but us. I think it is some kind of secret or you need a code.
I agree that depressed and bitter doesn't quite fit. I am disturbed that I see signs of it in me. Never was that way before.
I agree that fear is so much a problem lately. Never was afraid of anything in my life until recently. And I am not blaming it on my relationship difficulties. Something else is going on.
Nothing to be curious about the happier part... everyone looks at the difficulties and forgets that there are good parts. Can't tell if this is about culture/social changes or human nature. It is simple - when my husband is in my life - it isn't always easy but the good parts are: he is always there - he doesn't do guys night out - doesn't look at other women - likes staying home - we sleep together, eat together, go to work together, and shop together. He doesn't do chores but he does he own laundry. He also makes most meals and he makes sure I do things that are important for me. He insists on planning in advance to make things happen, and if I fall - he is there to take me to the dr. He doesn't do physical work but will help pay for someone else to do it. He wants me to have nice things when possible. He is protective of my time and energy. He loves to cuddle and is very affectionate - won't go anywhere without me.
Those are the good things. These are the things that people don't see. Most people don't live alone and understand that these things are important. His anger and walk away behavior is the problem. This stems from his past. This is all everyone else sees. I am caught in the middle seeing it all. That is why it seems to difficult.
