how do i keep my hope alive?

[trytryagain]

didn't do such a great job of GAL'ing tonight. after i found our wedding vows the rest of the night just sort of got away from me. i'm sad to admit i did a lot of sitting around, just staring at the wall. i know now is not the time to lose hope or give up my fight. just had an off night, i guess. found a bunch of my old letters and notes to him that he's been keeping in his sock drawer...i'm assuming he'll take them when he moves out this weekend.

i know everyone on this site says it's not over til it's over and all that...but then i talk to my family (ok, my mother), who tells me that it's pretty much done since he's moving out and that one day i'll find someone who loves me so much that he'll never question his faith in our marriage. it's just hard to keep my hope alive when i keep hearing, well he is moving out, it's obviously over.

i'm not going to lie, i am one sad sack of potatoes tonight. i have a session with my DB coach tomorrow evening, hopefully that will help set me back on track.

not really prepared for another night alone in bed, waking up all hours of the night, thinking he's right next to me. but...strangely, knowing he's going through the same thing is somewhat comforting to me.