What to do, what to do?

[LuLu]

Flowmom- As you know, it's not easy esp. with kids. I kept going down cheeseless tunnels though. I figured it was time to try a new path. It only took me 5+ months, duh.

I need to focus on the little steps or else days like today start to take over. Today I want to tell H to go f*ck himself. BUT, I didn't and I wasn't even nasty. I suppose I should give myself a pat on the back. Instead, I go back to that train of thought of, "What the hell am I doing wasting my time with this poor excuse of a husband!". I look at my little ones and think, you guys deserve so much better. I know better now then to share any of this with H so I am just venting here.

I did make a comment to H last night. He came to see the kids but had to leave here early to go to a wake. He asked me in not so many words, "Is dinner going to be ready or not?" It may not look so bad written but it definitely came across rude. I told to not speak to me like that as I am not his maid. He apologized and explained why he said it (like it mattered). As he left, he stopped me and said, "Thank you for dinner." F*cker.