Fear - of being w/out the person I'm closest to... Fear - of my boys growing up in a broken home... Fear - my daughter being alienated from the man she thinks of as Dad. Fear - not being able to handle it financially on my own (even though I make a great living, we're in the middle of an IRS nightmare). Fear - loneliness. Fear - losing my Love.
M-I could have written that myself.
I was able to overcome my fear and replaced it with acceptance.
I know your sitch is a little different than mine as H and I are currently separated and he has asked for a D.
I no longer fear being without the person I’m closest to because that person no longer exists. He checked out a long time ago.
I have accepted the fact that my kids will be labeled as coming from a broken home, but this was not by my choice. If I handle things correctly with them throughout this process, they will turn out just fine.
My standard of living will decrease substantially. I will not be able to maintain the same household, but these are only material things and I will be able to provide my kids with the basic staples.
GIMA walked me through this. Is your fear of loneliness reasonable? Yes, there will be times you are alone, but you ultimately have a control over this.
I don’t know if I am taking your last fear in the correct context, but your love for H will always exist.
DBing is supposed to be all about improving you and if in the process your M is saved than more power to you. It sounds like you need to start going about making yourself happy. Work on conquering your fears. I know, sounds really easy...
BTW - Too bad about the Doc. He sounds like a real catch. I am glad he was able to work your S into his schedule.
(((Mind)))
Me & H: 33 yrs S: 4 & 6 D: 2 M: 9 yrs ILYBNILWY: 8/09 SEPARATED: 9/09 The Beginning
