Is it me? Or is it really everyone else? lol.

[K4D]

The reason I posted what I did above (RE: post about depression) is when you have a problem (ex. JOB LOSS) your mind seems to drift back to your W. The other day you posted how tired you were of this life, how you want your W and kids back and so on. I don't think it was any coincidence you made such "down" posts about your marriage situation on the same day (or close to the dame day) of finding out about your job loss.

Hell yes a job loss is scary. No doubt about it! However it seems when you have a "scary" thing happen (a secondary trigger) you go back to your primary trigger of depression and that is your W.

Let's say you got offered a 250K job tomorrow with full benefits and a company car. You would be pretty stoked, no? You will feel a natural high. But once that high wore off and the job became a day to day thing your mind would wander back to your main depression issue (your W). Since you never leave that state of main depression it is always present but can be "hidden" by other highs and lows.

Yes, I have these repeated cycles of when something goes terribly wrong. I let it get me down. I worry far to much. Sometimes it even freezes me in fear. But I get past it. I always get past it.

Ok, so I don't get past missing my W. I am not sure I ever will.

Kevin