how do i keep my hope alive?

[trytryagain]

also, i did tell him i've been doing a lot of reading and that it's opened my eyes a lot and given me new perspective on relationships and myself. i didn't ask him to read anything, but just told him it had been really good to finally understand myself a little better, and the way marriages work, and that i'd realized a lot of things about myself that i had previously been totally unaware of. all of which are true.