Pls help--confused and fearful

[Day by Day]

Think I'm feeling the full spectrum of emotions today. Angry--OWXH called me last night. See ya... straight to VM. I don't need to hear what is going on with OW and STBX. Sadness/depression because of reality. I have way too much on my plate with this and both my parents' health.

I'm starting to pack up the house for moving and I'm looking for a new home. I'm having to change my whole life because of him. This house is too big anyway and I don't want to take care of such a big yard anymore.

And now, I get a TM from STBX that he's going to S12's spelling bee. This man never goes to the kids events and now thinks he can be super dad (for the court). It's been a couple weeks since I heard from him. Of all days I'm going to have to see that man--my actual birthday. I haven't seen him in a couple months. I don't want to see him. Wow. So glad I can say that now. So glad.

Uh, I'm just so frustrated. I've had it. I'm going to make plans to get away this weekend. I feel like going for a long, fast drive on the highway to the end of the earth. I need a break!!!