K4 as I have posted a good dozen times, I was very depressed when h left. But I had kids and could not let them see me like that for long....PLUS I did NOT want to feel like that for an unknown amount of time. When my older sister confronted me about my anger/sadness cycles and the obessing, I listened, I heard, and I got real help. So I hope you will too.
Your depression reveals itself here often. Over A year of your life, (when you know it has been much longer than that) and the depression is part of why your w left in the first place, AND part of why you drank too much AND part of why you were complacent at your job, and why you may have lost that job....is more than enough to know you can and should get help as WE DID....
How can you want to live like this for so long? "IT" won't change or "happen".
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M: 57 H: 60 M: 35 yrs S30,D28,D19 H off to Alaska 2006 Recon 7/07- 8/08 *2016* X = "ALASKA 2.0" GROUND HOG DAY I File D 10/16 OW DIV 2/26/2018 X marries OW 5/2016
