Undefeated Thank you. I take your advice to heart. I have gone to a psychotherapist and am attending the 12 step meetings.
Bi-polar? It is possible. There is a history of mental illness in my family. I am scared to death to end up like my grandmother in a catatonic state.
But its all fear and conjecture. I took a step forward. Now i just have to get my other foot to do the same.
My ex keeps contacting me about business and she says she is not ready yet to take the full brunt of what happened. That is fine by me, but when she does she will know the ugly disgusting truth and it will destroy us yet again. More fear.
How funny we are. How ironic that those of us that have been to the other side of the fence are now so much more open minded about second chances than those that are still on the other side. How much more selfish can we be?
