I do need to think about what I will do next. Just status quo? I love my job, but it is going through big changes that may make it less fun.
Go for the nursing degree just to do something entirely different, open up different opportunities?
do I really leave this state and town which I love and start over elsewhere? I can't help but see that as a win/lose situation--he wins, I lose. I guess if I were in a different place emotionally I would see it as a great new opportunity for me, not an admission of defeat.
It's just such a darn tiny town. And fighting for the house will take all my financial resources. Which makes staying with the job more important, and the ability to change careers less likely.
How have I failed so miserably? I kept NC as advised. I guess I just have to admit that he found the love of his life and I just wasn't it anymore.
Also hurting because a guy friend with whom I was hoping to have casual hookups (good for the ego!) and who totally led me to believe this was also an interest of his, said last night that he had been starting to date someone else. So he is pulling back from all the texting and teasing and suggesting outings that he had done all during Xmas break. Sh*t! He really had been acting like he was up for some casual fun. And I need some of that about now.
Have to call lawyers!
Me: 44 Him: 42 Together: 23 years; never married Bomb: August 1, 2009 Affair since May 2009 Walk away; no conversation; no process
