Looking for Advice

[gutwrenching]

Lost my good friend, I guess I can always count on you for a positive spin when I need one. Cause I woke up this morning with the foul mood of yesterday still lingering and I don't know why (not normal for me). Looking back, I blew it once already this morning and didn't realize it, got to snap out of this. W asked if I was leaving first this morining but I wasn't ready yet so I told her too...looking back I should have said yes just to be receptive to her giving me the option.

I never thought about the fact that she has gotten as used to not checking in with me as I have not checking in with her. Darn you for pointing out the obvious. But on the other hand, if she was able to leave at 5:30 then why in the world did she not leave till 7 after saying she was on her way out at 6:15.

So am I wrong in my thinking of not contacting her about these types of things in the future. Do I use this to open up the communication a little and start initiating a phone call each evening to see who is going to leave? Or do I continue on with the pattern/routine that I've gotten myself into where I don't rely on her for really anything when it comes to the kids these days?

Chin up, your right, got to snap out of this.

I stayed in the house last night instead of wandering out and although not as positive vibes as Monday night, better than Tuesday night. Will continue to try this approach