A cheated cheater 2

[undefeated]

LOL, yes we are very young, but we have both seen a lot of life by this point. It makes me optimistic that when we finally get through this, we will have faced some of the hardest, worst things any marriage can go through. I would much rather fight hard now, even if I may lose. And I'm not saying we won't have troubles down the road. But when we look back on what we've worked through here, I don't see how anything could possibly beat us.

And yes, I have also accepted that I may not get my husband back. But I try not to let that get to me. I want my marriage, but this entire experience has reminded me of something important. My life did not begin the day I got married, and it will not end even if my marriage does. I am my own person with my own hopes, dreams, goals, and happiness.

Focus on the little ones? That's all I seem to have done for most of five years. I love my military life, but I do get sick of being a single parent so often. And it is about to happen again. After training in TX through the month of February my H intends to apply for Special Forces. That's 5 weeks of individual training in his time off, then a 21 day qualifying period in the field, then if he's accepted into SF he goes to 5 more schools (at least) with each one lasting about a month.

I did manage to smile and be calm when my H got home from work last night. We haven't talked about the money as he wanted to yet, and I'm not bringing it up right now. I am trying to prepare myself for anything he might say during that cheerful little discussion. That way, no matter what he says to me I will be calm and respond logically instead of emotionally.