how do i keep my hope alive?

[trytryagain]

thanks, talia. i have no intention of signing anything today, just plan to tell him i'll look over it but that i'm not in a place to sign anything quickly and especially without counsel.

trust me, i'm doing my best to consider what is best for ME right now. i think the shockwaves of all of this sometimes keep me from seeing that clearly. part of me wants to ball up on the floor and cry, "but HE is what's best for me!!!" which i know is not only not true, but will also get me nowhere.

i'll post later about how lunch went. pray for me!!